Sometimes there are things that are hard that you just have to do. Not because they’ll bring good things in the end, not because they’re good for you or beneficial in some other way; just because they have to be done. Various self-help blogs online might try to pep you up, insisting that these are things that need to be struck from your to-do list… but that’s hogwash. They still have to be done. Maybe people with no connections to others, no empathy, can get away with refusing to take the trash down to the dumpster instead of just throwing it out the window into the neighbor’s balcony below, but for some of us, it’s just a thing that needs to be done. And the longer it’s delayed the worse it gets.
Sometimes there is just too much that you’re committed to do. I was seriously thinking of calling in sick to work tomorrow, but I just really don’t want to do that. I baked banana bread, and I get to dress up! I may be exhausted and borderline strung-out, but I really want to go in tomorrow. I already have the day requested off for Tuesday (my partner and I are going hiking at Mt. Tamalpais!), so that should help at least somewhat. So instead of calling in sick I skip my Duolingo German lesson and try to get to bed early as a result. But I’m still going to write this blog entry, and I’m still going to put my time in towards knitting a Christmas present.
I get really scared and worried about losing things sometimes — lately, I keep getting worried about losing my job, or that we’re going to get evicted. But I just need to remind myself — we’re not getting evicted right now, I’m not losing my job right now. We have an amazing little dog, and I have a wonderful partner, and I have an amazing sister, and my parents are excellent, and I have a wonderful family, and our apartment is great, and I have a great job, and really, instead of stressing out, I just need to be thankful. I need to be grateful, because I have a lot of things that a lot of people would give up a kidney for.
My life is pretty awesome.
He reads too, you know.